"I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why"

Sedang enak menikmati waktu petang yang damai sambil melayari internet yang slow T__T, terjumpa cerita "Diari Seorang Secret Admire" kat bawah ni, *Tajuk cerita hanyalah rekaan dan khayalan waktu petang penulis (aku), harap maklum. Search kat Google, berlambak citer camni, Sape-sape yang terlalu busy sampai tak pernah baca benda ni, hayatilah maksud cinta sebenar *erkkk...T__T*....

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

 

Hrmm...T__T sedih kan? 

Rilex giler kan aku petang ni? Hahaha, bukan ape, tengah rehat dari perjalanan yang panjang pergi makan kat bwah tadi? Kenapa panjang? Sebab aku kena turun naek tangga sebab lif rosak +__+....

Ni aku nak panas ni, dah lama dah lif tu merosakkan diri masing-masing *masing-masing merujuk kepada 3 lif yang rosak dan hanya tinggal 1 lif yang elok, tu pun kena turun naik tingkat 12...sedangkan aku kat tingkat 17 +__+*. Tapi pihak blok ni buat seolah-olah flat ni mempunyai 4 tingkat dan boleh naik guna escalator. Aku rasa aku dah turun berat badan kot, mungkin kira-kira 5 kg dan pada masa lif tu rosak, aku mampu membina muscle kaki aku setaraf dengan atlet jalan kaki. *mode dah ready register untuk olympic 2012*

 

*dah ready*

So, perhatian buat, @Karam Singh Walia dan @Nas Ahmad *feeling tengah tag dorang lam blog ni macam lam facebook*, sila buat liputan tentang masalah penduduk Blok 21 Flat Bukit Angkasa ni yer..+__+. Kesian tgk makcik-makcik dan macam semput dah naik tangga tuh...

Malam ni nak tengok ANUGERAH BINTANG POPULAR BERITA HARIAN walaupun tak berapa minat. Sesaje nak feeling seorang bintang...*pengsan*